Taken about a minute (or less) after orgasm, for K. He caused it, so I figured he should see the state I was left in. I guess I was still a bit shaky when snapping this ;)

and a thank you to my new friend who lent a critical eye to the photo, helped with the clean-up tweaks of it, and attempted to help me untangle the spaghetti mess of code for e[lust]

Tags: HNT, K, lips, Photos, tits

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She’s standin in her underwear
Lookin down from a hotel room
Nightfall will be comin soon
Oh my my, oh hell yes
You’ve got to put on that party dress

I think you guys already know that I like this one. It’s intense but in a really good way. Yes, sometimes it’s a bit much *even for me*, but man it can be soooo good.

Let me back up. I’ve never seen one of these before. I know, I’m sheltered. Even though I’ve read all about it and it’s retro look, I wasn’t prepared. I laughed at the box and laughed even more as I pulled it out. It looks ridiculous, but who the hell cares.

The Hitachi (and aptly named) Magic Wand. It is, indeed, magic. There are two speeds. “Oh my my” and “Oh hell yes”. For the sensitive lasses out there – don’t bother. Go for the Miracle Massager. This one would make you cry.

Orgasms with the Hitachi are finicky with me. It’s either a record-breaking 1:47 seconds the-crowd-is-cheering sort of thing, or it’s just too much and my clit won’t break and submit to it. The Hitachi has many uses. It truly is great on the back. I’ll give them that. It can make any stationary toy into a vibrating machine. I’ve heard it can do lovely things to rope when you’re all trussed up (perhaps someone will show me the joys of that particular use…)

Here’s the deal. It’s kinda large. It’s kinda heavy. It plugs in, so there’s no batteries to waste and that means it’s super-powerful. If you are prone at ALL to squirting, you will want to cover the head and such with a condom – you’ll understand why when you see it. It’s made of plastic and PVC, so condoms are good if you’re at a play party and sharing. (And please do share, if you happen upon a Hitachi-virgin, initiate them into this world. It’s your civic duty.)

My first playtime with this guy came the night it arrived. What, you didn’t think I was going to ignore the toy I’ve been wanting for months and months now, did you?? You know me better! I can no longer recall which one of my boys I had been talking to, who had been getting me worked up….perhaps it was K, but things have changed between him and I (since R, I think), and things don’t “go there” very often anymore. Anyways. I sat here chatting with him, idly fingering my clit…didn’t want to just thrust the Hitachi on her, poor thing, would have been quite the shock! I plugged it in, sat here at my desk with legs spread wide and resting on various furniture items, and turned it on low (i.e. Oh my my). FUCK that felt good. Within literally a minute and a half, I felt the telltale spreading of full-body tingling. I clicked it over quickly to high (i.e. OH HELL YES) and 20 seconds later I was coming. Hard. Flushed and shaking. I clicked it back over to low to ride it out, made myself keep it there until my cunt stopped throbbing for the most part. 2 minutes.

I predict that for women who have a more prominent clit than I (mine requires a bit of exploration, some, like my friend Sarah are out and proud “Hi, I’m Sarah’s clit!” As she likes to explain it), they won’t even need to disrobe to orgasm from this thing. And as AlwaysArousedGirl put it once, this is not a toy you make love to. This is not a toy you use and abuse, let it wring the orgasms out of you rapid-fire, when you are in deep need of a good hard screaming O or three. Or pressed for time.

The downside? It gets warm. Nay, hot. If used too long, that is. Let the poor guy breathe in between orgasms/people, for a few minutes.

Plain and simple, people: Unless you come at the drop of a hat…unless a finger to your clit triggers orgasms in a minute or so…BUY THIS VIBRATOR.

Go. NOW. Buy it.

Remember the G-spot attachment for the Miracle Massager? With some lube and patience it’ll eventually go over the head of the Hitachi. And it felt pretty damn good. It’s not meant for that toy, but I did it anyways. One warning if you do it yourself – don’t push it ALL the way down. Leave just a smidge of room. The Hitachi got hot enough that it every-so-slightly melted it where it touched it at the top of the Hitachi head.

Tags: Hitachi, K, Lilly's Top Toy Recommendations, massager style vibrators, masturbation, sextoys, VibeReview, vibrators

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One sentence.

One little sentence, a few words strung together, and I’m a goner. You know that feeling of immediate arousal? It’s like a tingle…starting at about the throat and traveling down south at the speed of light. Butterflies. Your breath catches, your pulse quickens, and you grin like the damn Cheshire Cat. I’m rendered speechless…my cunt throbbing and wet…my face flushed.

3 times yesterday. 3 men. Seriously, are guys trying to kill me?

(I had asked K if he had seen the HNT pics)
K*: you mean the tank top that made me want to slam you against the wall and fuck the shit out of you?
(He said more that made me about speechless for a minute, but that was the big one that reduced me to a whimpering lust-puddle in a split second)

R: gets really close to your ear for a second while nobody is looking and whispers I can’t wait to try and put my fist in your cunt, though. licks your ear
(Fucker. He says that, but I didn’t see it at first, had to quickly leave the window as a co-worker was coming up to my desk. I read it finally, minutes later, and had to quickly regain my composure. He said this without yet knowing that being fisted is a fantasy of mine that only has its place in the rough, submissive sex scene I’m craving lately)

T: I came really hard staring at your tits the other night…I’m going to look again in a few…and probably….cum hard again…
(T’s making me a video of himself doing just that…he knows I love hearing him cum)

*”K” asked me to change his initial on my blog, to something completely unrelated to his name, real or screenname. To find out who K is you’ll have to check back at older posts. He’s been talked about a few times and any place he is referenced, the initial is changed.

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In other news – I found a really great use for the Silver Bullet I reviewed here. I mentioned using it on guys as did Heather had also suggested in comments, but I hadn’t yet tried it. Hooo boy did I get a reaction! I held it against him…nestled in between his balls and pressed against the base of his cock while I sucked him off. I think his eyes rolled back in his head when I first did that with the S.B. I asked if it felt good and I was given a mostly-incoherant reply that clearly meant “yes, and don’t stop”. I started it out on a lower setting and as he acclimated to the vibrations I gradually increased it.

Tags: conversations, K, Lilly's Top Toy Recommendations, R, random thoughts, real life, Silver Bullet, T

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Lest you think my inner slut is all there is to me let me assure you that I do, in fact, have a heart. A big one. I love completely, I love fiercely and I would do anything for my loved ones and friends.

I realized the other night that I have a bit of a crush on K.

Our internet-friendship has been primarily about sex in some way or another in the 4 months we’ve been talking. Whether it’s factually or sensually, sex is the main topic. He knows every little detail of what I like in bed, and he has created fantasies that I wouldn’t have given much thought to in the past. He eggs on my naughtiness, he gives me “dares” to do/say to a guy. He gives me advice. We talk about boring non-sex stuff sometimes, as well. We only talk when he’s at work, save for the occasional morning he’s horny and needs some extra stimulation from me to help him along. I know a few things about his job, and his life outside of work. I know he has a girlfriend he lives with and that he’s pretty serious about her. He, actually, knows tons more about me than I know about him.

And yet I still developed a crush. I noticed myself getting moody with him recently. Feeling disappointed when he’s not in the mood to talk. I started thinking stupid unfounded things like he “replaced” me or he’s no longer interested in talking to me. And feeling a little crushed whenever he tactfully avoids an answer whenever I say something in the vein of “I want to meet you”. Despite how great we probably would be together in bed, we’ll never meet unless something happens and he’s single. Which I don’t wish for. He’s been possibly unfaithful in the past with girlfriends he didn’t care so much for, but it appears he’s found a keeper and doesn’t want to jeopardize that. But knowing I can’t have him has made him a little more desirable. There is a strange fascination/turn-on with “taking” something that isn’t mine, that I shouldn’t have. It’s led me to some morally questionable situations in the past. To hear “I want you so bad, but I just can’t” is kinda like fuel to my fire. Frequently I get what I want. With K, I don’t.

I confessed my little crush to him, to explain why I have been weird with him lately. “Aww, I’m sorry” wasn’t quite the response I….wanted? But what I expected. He thanked me for my honesty. It’s a crush, just a crush, I’ll get over it. I’ll work through it. I’m not sure HOW, but I will. I may have to back off talking to him for a little while, except that that might risk the friendship. It’s not a friendship I want to lose; after all, I owe him a lot. He has gotten me to go deeper down the rabbit hole of my sexuality. And he’s gotten me to explore my submissive/bottom side much moreso than anyone else ever has. I have him to thank for my deep craving of rough, hard, bottoming-out/submissive sex.

And he’s been a good friend.

I need to be more careful in the future. But it’s just a little crush. It will fade away.

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I’ve been thinking about my kinks recently. I’ve got a lot to share with you, but small doses ;)

I list exhibitionism and voyeurism as my top kink and turn-on, and I list it as one because I think they go hand-in-hand. Most enjoy both equally.

Voyeur side:
Looking at erotic photos, yes, turns me on. Looking at the sort of erotic video that I like, turns me on. But nothing turns me on more than words. Nothing. Period. A well-written story that lets you the reader feel as if you are directly experiencing it, or even better, a fly on the wall. A sexy conversation online with one of my boys, detailing our fantasies, our experiences and better yet “what I’d do to you”.

As I sit here and read Jake’s account of a sexy romp, and then even better spy his delectable six-pack abs, I find myself achingly wet.
Reading Jack’s stories of rough hard fucking over on RoughWords, I am not only wet with a painfully swollen clit but craving that sort of rough hard bottoming-out sex so badly I can taste it.
And, oh yes, especially yes, detailing with K all that we want with each other.
Spying on the various and delicious naked body parts via HNT…but well, that leads me to the exhibitionist side….

Exhibitionist side:
How I love, truly love, a hard cock that I created. I can be going along minding my own business, not even horny, and when one of my boys tells me they just read my latest entry and are foaming at the mouth, I am joining right in with them in their puddle of lust.

The back and forth discussions on IM and email are equal V/E, I think. I am showing off for the other person, really.

Posting for you all to read…I find myself aching for release after every entry.

Showing off my photos and the ego feeding I get, god I love knowing that I made him(any him, really, or her for that matter) hard with my words, with my photo. A’s reaction to a few pics I sent him the other night still makes me dripping wet just from rereading it….

A: got em
A: oh my god
A: I think I may cum without even touching myself
Me: :)
A: looking at you spread your ass
Me: yeah….thought you might like that
A: such a tight and inviting asshole
A: I’m losing consciousness
Me: i hoped you’re this crazed with lust when you’re with me
Me: cause your reaction is driving me nuts
A: I am laying on my stomach
A: and I can feel my dick throbbing just like it does before I cum

It is like a drug. I am addicted to this. I feed off of this. It is, quite frankly, turning me into something of a slut.
K read my blog for the first time yesterday. He is not alone in his reaction, but I like his the best. I love knowing that the poor boy is sitting there at work, a beautiful hard-on with precum dripping down his leg, because of me.

K: like i said…
K: your blog makes my cock hard.
Me: :)
K: i’m positively throbbing.
Me: what did you like most on my blog?
K: don’t make me choose
Me: please :)
K: i’d rather just enjoy the blissful feeling in my boxers ;)
Me: lol
K: i just like your openness
K: your raw sexuality
K: the sensuality of your writing
Me: I’m sure I’ll get many blog post ideas from you ;)

I think I may combust….
oh god yes.
right there…
Please excuse me while I sneak in a quickie with my finger

Tags: ass, boys, conversations, Exhibitionism, K, Photos, random thoughts, real life, Voyeurism

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