Full inhale, full exhale.
Our girl is gone.
After a long hard trip to the vet, our girl Inky was let go last night. Our brave girl hung on too hard, she wouldn’t let go on her own and so we went. Her fear is a knife to my heart right now, she was so scared at the vet’s office. So weak. We miss her deeply already. We are still grieving and teary, trying to soak up memories of the good times to replace the last week of hell and worry and sick.It is hard….I knew it would be, our hearts are a bit broken right now.
I am shamelessly stealing this quote from a recent post by Sinclair:
Kapalabhati (breath of fire) mimics the breath pattern of sobbing, or mourning, and sends messages to the brain and body that you are experiencing these things. The amount we mourn and let go = the amount of new space we have created. If you’ve loved deeply, you must mourn deeply, and vice versa.
If you do not activate something new while mourning, you’ll have nothing to let go of the past for. Inhales are essential to exhales….if we have something new to breathe in, we will be more able to fully breathe out and let go. If there’s nothing to let go for, of course we’ll go back to the past and will not move forward. Full inhales and exhales after kapalabhati = new breath, new life.
– thoughts from yoga, sarah herrington
So we mourn. To help me through it, I wrote a post on my side blog. Inky’s story. It is long, there are photos and a video montage at the end. You don’t have to read it, but I had to do it.
New breath, new life…..her ghost is still here with us. her spirit abounds. We need to help another cat, maybe even two. We looked at Petfinder this morning and found a few girls who badly need a home. And we badly need them.
awww *hug* I’m so sorry for your loss!
I am happy to hear that you will be giving another cat a home, that will be good for both of you (you and the homeless kitteh).
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*deep hugs* I know how hard this is. I hope you find peace in knowing you made the right decision for Inky. She is in a place of no pain and no discomfort, where she happily watches over you now. Take some time to mourn and then when you are ready, you will bless another cat into a good home.
*big hugs* Our pets become such a part of our lives and our family. We haven’t had to face this yet but I know at some point down the road both my children and I will have to deal this same loss. I’m so sorry you are going through it now.
I’m here if you ever want to chat.
xoxo
~hugs~ Losing a pet is always difficult. It’s good that you are looking to rescue another kitteh (or two).
I’m sorry to hear about your Inky :-(
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Aww I want to gather you up in my arms and squish you tight. I know how hard it is to lose a pet and to make that decision, grieve, mourn her because it’s healthy. Inky is at peace now hunni and right beside you in spirit. Lotsa love and huggles xxx
I hope you don’t mind if I recommend a book. I think you’ll appreciate it.
“Rescuing Sprite: A Dog Lover’s Story of Joy and Anguish” by Mark R. Levin
*hugs* I’m here if you need me.
And that website is awesome! Kudos to you for wishing to adopt a kitty in need. =]
Oh god, honey, I’m so sorry about Inky. I know how much she meant to you. I remember times she made you smile, times she made you mad, times she made you crazy. She was a wonderful girl, and I miss her too.
i am so sorry to hear of your loss.
Until you’ve lost a beloved pet most have no clue what that is like. Most will say, “Oh hell, it’s just a dog (or cat). What’s the big deal?” I’ll tell you what the big deal is: More than likely the pet has become your best friend . . . your constant companion. . . something you sleep with every night and who renders unconditional love.
I lost my best friend Jilli, dog extrodinare, a year ago in January. Just now am I able to talk about our loss without completely losing it. We were that close.
So, take care. Cry a lot. Occupy yourself. Cherish the memories. And I guess getting a new cat will help to some degree . . . but not really. It takes time and not a new pet to heal the hurt you’re feeling. Take care.
Oh honey I am so sorry and I am sending big hugs your way. Take care sweetie. I am thinking of you.
Deepest condolences – losing a pet is like losing a friend. Hang in there – she is in a better place.
I am so sorry, Lilly. Big hugs to you.
CW
So sorry! I lost both of my cats in October ’07 – three weeks apart from each other. The house was so empty and quiet, that I got two kittens within a week. I still miss my original kitties so much. And I often find ‘the kittens’ sitting in the spot where one of my kitties died. It makes me sad. I hope you will replace the sadness and emptiness with the great memories you had.