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Uncharted

No words
My tears won’t make any room for ‘em, oh
And it don’t hurt
Like anything I’ve ever felt before

 

This is no broken heart
No familiar scars
This territory goes uncharted

 

Just me
In a room sunk down in a house in a town
And I don’t breathe
Though I never meant to let it get away from me

 

Now I have too much to hold
Everybody has to get their hands on gold
And I want uncharted

 

Stuck under the ceiling
I made, I can’t help the feeling I’m going down
Follow if you want, I won’t just hang around
Like you’ll show me where to go

 

I’m already out
Of foolproof ideas so don’t ask me how
To get started
It’s all uncharted

 

………

………

 

Jump start my kaleidoscope heart
I love to watch the colors fade
They may not make sense
But they sure as hell made me

 

I won’t go as a passenger, no
Waiting for the road to be laid
Though I may be going down
I’ll take in flame over burning out

 

Compare
Where you are to where you wanna be
And you’ll get nowhere

 

~ Uncharted, Sara Bareilles

Every blog anniversary has had a big emotional post and a sex toy giveaway. This year, you get song lyrics and a dying blog. I’d had a grand idea to get a number of companies to let me give away Pure Wands, multiple Pure Wands and nothing but Pure Wands, but I didn’t get as many as I wanted and after we moved I just…..lost my touch. Something needs to be jump started but I’m all out of fool proof ideas. I was supposed to be happier. I was supposed to be in my element. Blogging was supposed to get better and easier to manage all my projects and I was supposed to be able to finally start some projects I’ve had in my head.

But my house is still a mess, and unpacking is so fucking hard for a person with a brain like mine, and I’m missing social interaction and I’m lonely some days. I lose track of the days of the week and forget about WantonWednesday sometimes. Or lack the motivation to do an edition of e[lust].  Or write a blog post.

So the question is: Am I burning out? Can I jump start things? Or should I go down in flames?

No words
My tears won’t make any room for ‘em, oh

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The Difference a Year Makes

One year.

286 posts.

2,667 comments.

50 sex toys for review.

106 blogs in my feed reader.

111 people that I follow in Twitter.

247 people that follow me in Twitter.*

131,400 visits and 276,300 page views

Countless wonderful people that I have emailed, IM’d, @’d, some I have met and called…..some particular ones have made this all the best year ever. I met R because of this blog and in fact it’s been about a year coming up that I’ve known him. Coy Pink, BadBadGirl, Naughty Secretary and R are all people I speak to daily or weekly. Still others I communicate with nearly daily through Twitter. Just about every single one of those people over there in my sidebar are people I most definitely call “friend”. I am rich with friendships. I am blessed.

On June 15th, 2008, I read my first sex blog. It appealed to me on so many levels and I thought “I wonder if I can do this?” I thought it over for a day, what “angle” I could take, what I could write about.I settled on an exhibitionistic/voyeuristic slant and jumped in with both feet. I had so much to say and I had to force myself to not post all at once! The first two real posts came out on the same day, the 17th.

At that point my exposure to blogs was still limited and I hadn’t read more than a half dozen. As I read more blogs, I expanded my own writing. I joined in HNT pretty quick – I was pointed in that direction by a few people on a certain social site who led me to believe it was a sex blogger thing, for sexy risque photos. I later learned that that’s not accurate.

I have bared a lot here, in writings and confessionals and photos. I have had fun. There have been a few heartaches but it’s been mostly filled with wonderfulness. Yes, I’m getting kinda sentimental here; I looked back at the early posts and comments and I smiled. There’s a few faithful readers that I miss. I’ve had a few screw-ups and a few loses but I’ve gained so much more. Dare I say….I’ve changed. For the better, definitely.

It’s all been….priceless. It’s more than a blog to me now. I won’t be going anywhere anytime soon because I just can’t imagine walking away from the community and the friends.

Thank you…

Edit: I forgot to add another set of numbers that I actually really proud of. I’ve gotten the Sugasm Top 3 pick 7 times now, and Fleshbotted 7 times. A Sugasm Editor’s pick and a couple nods from Sexoteric round it out. It’s really the Sugasm picks that mean the most though because my peers voted on it.

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You can also consider this my HNT post, just early. Since when do I follow rules, right? ;)

A worktime bathroom request shot that I thought I’d share…

* I’d likely have over 700 but my updates are protected and I become a suspicious grumpy old (wo)man when it comes to people I don’t know following me on Twitter so I decline a lot.

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