Dec 232009
 

A post by AAG earlier in the week reminded me of my first blowjob – and man was it awkward. And actually – quite regrettable. I must confess though that I’m not sure which year of high school this occurred, junior or senior year. I know that his name was John and he lived in another school district; we caught each others eye in the Small Town Friday Night Activity of Going To The Mall. LAME! I know. But I thought he was hot. We had something resembling a lame date and then a month or so later I saw him again for my Christmas formal.

He was allowed to drive me to and from the dance, I think. But oddly we didn’t get frisky until he brought me home. He dropped me off and politely made small talk with my father and then I walked him to his car. I originally thought that my father went to bed at that point. Oh silly, silly me. John’s idea of “saying goodnight” was to lure me into his backseat for a few kisses. Or so he said. Have I mentioned how inexperienced I was yet at this age?  Ha! Pretty soon, he whipped out his cock and I hadn’t a damn clue what to do with it other than put my hand on it. Very quickly, his hand on the back of my head increased the pressure of pushing me down to his lap until he had to outright tell me what he wanted because I just wasn’t getting the hint. I do recall telling him that I’d never done that before and wasn’t sure how…..I don’t remember what he said but I felt that I shouldn’t say no, I wanted him to like me.

I couldn’t tell you anymore what I did or didn’t do. I’m pretty sure my teeth caught him once. And I do know that it didn’t last very long, certainly he didn’t come. I was scared enough of Penis; ejaculation would have made me run, I bet.

The worst part? You guessed it by now, my dad wasn’t in bed. He never said anything to me when I came back to the house, but I know he knew I was in that backseat with that boy. Oh, the shame. The shame!!

My regret stems from two facts: This boy didn’t deserve a blowjob from me, because he was a douchebag and I didn’t realize it until afterwards. He faked being grounded to get out of ever seeing me again. And of course that my father had an inkling of me being unladylike in the backseat of the car in my driveway.

I don’t think I sucked another cock until my First Real Boyfriend. Somehow with him I went from being afraid of Penis, Sex and Naked Men to becoming a slutty slut-ho in a week’s time. I fucked him inside a week of dating, and we couldn’t keep our dirty little hands off each other. But that’s a story for another time.

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  • Tracer Bullet

    Your father is a better man than me. I’d send his ass home in a garbage bag. My old man would have sent him home in a Ziploc.

  • Michelle

    Isn’t it funny how all it takes is that one relationship that turns you from prude to slutty mcslutterson?? I totally had a similar first blowjob experience and I hated it. now I can’t get enough! ;)

  • http://auroraboriealice.blogspot.com Aurora

    My First was the day I lost my virginity :) In my own bed with the love of my life…. lol. I was 19 and we had been friends for 5 years! It was magical and wonderful and he was patient even when i spit back up all over him ;) lol

  • http://amorouschick.blogspot.com Amorous Rocker

    Heh, I got oral sex from a girl for the first time in my bedroom while my parents were having a party for people my dad worked with downstairs. The girl was actually one of the co-workers daughters and I had only seen her twice before for a few minutes each time. That was fun.

    I can’t imagine having to walk back inside and face my dad at that age knowing that I’d just done something totally naughty and he had an idea about it. Then again I really wouldn’t have had to worry about that but I can imagine it would suck and possibly be awkward.

  • Kayla

    I don’t think I really remember my first one. I’ll probably have to try and remember it at some time. Your story is just funny, though. I don’t think I’d have the guts to do that in front of my house.

  • rage

    It’s funny when we look back on those “firsts” and how most often we have regrets about them. I don’t necessarily remember giving my first blowjob, but remember the “first time” I had sex and how horrible it was.

    ((Shudders))

  • http://www.thewritingbuddha.com Buddha

    I don’t think any of us knew what we were doing back then…