Mar 112009
 

So you know how, for those of you who have a site tracker sort of thing, it can be really amusing and informative to see where people are coming from and how they got to you?

Sometimes…….not so much. Suddenly there were all these hits from a forum thread somewhere, to an HNT from a few months ago. What I read there about myself was hurtful to me. Sure, they don’t know me from the slut next door and they’re being judgmental and petty and all sorts of things. Sure, I shouldn’t take to heart what they might say about how I look. But I am a lot more thin-skinned than I’d like to be sometimes and it really pierced me. As my chest clutched in anxiety and hurt, watching the hits roll in, the absolutely wonderful husband of Coy Pink, Alec, whipped up a bit of code to redirect the gawkers from there to elsewhere. I don’t want reassurances that they’re assholes and I shouldn’t listen – to be frank the words were unkind in their delivery but they did speak the truth. I have already heard the dismissive reassurances from the friends I told this to but it doesn’t quite erase it.

I’m tapped out creatively right now with photos. I’m fed up with my own harsh self-criticism of said photos. Until I can think up something better than Angle 28 of My Big Tits, I’m done with HNT for the near future. I also prefer the sincere praise of my erotica, or the helpful/thoughtful/warm comments on my other writings to the once-weekly ogling of my exposed naughty bits. Sure I’ll still put up a photo here and there, but not like clockwork, not for HNT. Not now.

So instead, tell me, do you like my new site design? With the help of the ever-wonderful Alec in nudging the code bits around when I threw up my hands, the beautiful vector brushes from this talented girl, and the critical (not in the bad way, in the “darken that, lighten that, it’ll flow/pop better”) commentary from others with a great design eye like Naughty Secretary and my partner and others – I used the barebones template of this theme (despite its broken footer.php file) but obviously I totally did my own graphics. I just don’t know enough yet to write my own code. But the design idea and the Photoshop work is mine. It took me about 2 weeks to go from start to completion with both the graphics and the code tweaks (mainly because I tried my hardest to do as much code myself as I could, even though it undoubtedly took me 10 times longer than it would have taken Alec to do the same thing).


Oh and here’s your obligatory tit flashing :)

Same parking lot as the last time, more boldness. Same time of day. If there were any workers of the factory just below this lot in their parking lot, looking up in my direction, they couldn’t have missed this! lol


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  • blueyeguy

    Magnificent, wonderful, perfect…

    Accurate descriptions escape me…

  • I love you and your beautiful new website. *mwah*

    ~ *hugs* thank you sweetie

  • Kitten

    I love what you did with the template LOADS more than I like the template itself.

    It would be cool if the tags up top linked to tags of your posts, but it’s not necessary. I appreciate the work you put into your blog, Lilly. And every bit of work you put into your photos.

    They are all magnificent, and you inspire me. You really do.

    ~ They don’t?? Crap. Changing, lol. Thanks :) When in preview mode while designing, links didn’t work at all so I couldn’t tell.

    ~ Ohhhhh you mean up in the header image. Yeah, I’m thinkin about doing that. Thinkin. Thanks for liking it :)

  • Ronald10021

    I do love your blogposts and your obligatory tit photos. You have great tits…

  • George

    I have been reading your blog for a while and i think the posts and pics are great. The new design is awesome! I am a soldier who is getting ready to deploy to Iraq again, and the things those people said are stupid you shouldn’t worry about it seriously! I think you are beautiful, and you have amazing tits! Try not to take that crap to heart they are just stupid!
    ~ thank you for saying hello, and we’ll send you and your unit good thoughts. I can try, but I can’t guarantee, it can be tough to bear the brunt of mean comments.

  • Dragon Mage

    I really like the new site design. Dark text on light background is MUCH easier on my eyes than light text on dark background. The header is awesome (and if you managed to link those words to categories, it would be even more awesome ~_^ )
    I personally don’t worry about HNT photos – luvbunny and I post them when we can, or when we are inspired, but certainly not every week. If you aren’t feeling it, don’t worry about it.
    That being said, Luvbunny and I certainly like it when you *do* post photos of your “exposed naughty bits.” Especially as you have such *nice* naughty bits. ^_^

    ~ Thanks dear, I think I will work on that header :) And I know this config is easier to read for some people, one reason why I changed.

  • Jake

    I love the new design, it’s fantastic.

    Hehe I did a redirect-from-certain-referrer thing to block visitors from this forum that likes to bitch about college age sex bloggers. I was a asian-loving, puny masturbation addict apparently, well at least they got one thing right…. I made it so it redirected them (through an affiliate programme link!) to an Amazon page for a book for kids called ‘How to make friends’, a nice little touch I thought! :D

    x

    ~ Jake that is fucking brilliant! I have to admit, mine wasn’t as….nice…. ;)

  • Hu

    The template looks fabulous. I hate to admit it, but I’m envious of your tits…I wish I had a pair like that!

    ~ Hmmm you hate to admit it? um….thanks? lol

  • I love the new design- it looks great. Nice job!

    No HNT and then you show your boobs. Works for me ;-)

  • TUG

    I do like the new design. Just remember, HNT isn’t about naked…it’s about nekked! There is a difference!

    ~ I still am not feeling creative, no matter how much or little skin, lol

  • d

    i LOVE the new design. You and your helpers did a great job. It’s beautiful, just like you.

    ~ Thank you :)

  • Riff Dog

    What the fuck is up with these assholes at whatever this other site was? I don’t know what they said, but there are certain guys, usually unattractive guys strangely enough, who get hyper critical when it comes to women. Kinda like that guy in high school who never goes on a date because he claims his “standards are too high.”

    Fuck them. Take it from me, Lilly, you are hot as hell. And I dare say my opinion is a little more valid than the pimply faced guy in his parents’ basement who’s surfing for free HNT pictures between rounds of Dungeons and Dragons.

    Morons.

    Whether you continue to do HNT or not is a separate issue and I support you either way on that. (As if you need my support. Ha!)

    And I do like the new design a lot.

    ~ Thank you dearest. Yes on this awful dating-sorta site I used to be on, it most definitely was the pathetic ugly/fat/pimply men who couldn’t get a date because of their looks and their bitter personality that railed the most on the unperfect women.

  • Riff Dog

    Okay, now I do have one site critique. In the comments, it doesn’t space between our paragraphs, even though I know I hit Return a couple times between them. So everybody’s comments are these big single paragraph blobs. Not a big deal, but since I’m here yapping . . .

    ~ Yes, I know. I haven’t yet figured out if it’s something in the coding, or if it’s the new editor I’ve installed for WP….I’m not sure. It’s a bug I’ll work out……somehow, lol

  • Bad Bad Girl

    I love the new layout. Looks great!! And I’m with Riff, you’re hot as hell. ;) Love you lots, my friend….

    ~ love you too sweetie, thanks :)

  • marcelloNYC

    The site looks great as do you.

    check back latter for HNT!

  • Elle

    Love the new look, it’s soft in feminine without being too much. Great job! Almost makes me wanna update mine… but no, not yet ;)

    I believe I totally get how you’d feel about such negative comments. A few years back there was this online group you could join by posting some pictures of yourself and people would vote on your looks and if you got enough votes, you were in. My friend did it so I did too, just for fun… and ended up getting lots of aweful comments. Apparently, I have a huge forehead. Never knew it ;) I was really hurt though and deleted the pics. Even though it was a stupid group and the main reason I wasn’t accepted, I think, is that I didn’t have the same emo look everyone there had, I felt aweful. In the end, best way I found to deal with it was to just think of them as stupid people who don’t know anything… LOL I guess that would be call denial? Not sure.

    ~ Thanks! I kept redoing and redoing the background header, didn’t want overkill. A huge forehead? Srsly, that was their complaint?? They don’t know what they were missin out on!

  • yes the new look is awesome! I dig it. Im sorry you have been hurt recently.. there are so many assholes out there. I know that I would be just as hurt too.
    I’m just like you that I adore being praised for my writing more than my picture.
    You are beautiful inside and out girl!

    ~ *hugs* thank you dear girl. Yes, our writing we can look at and not see the flaws, but ourselves? Our bodies? Harsh harsh critics. Doesn’t seem like it should be that way.

  • Well I like the template fine!

    I feel the same way every week trying to come up with something.
    I do so adore your pics though they are always awesome!

  • I am so sorry that those fuckers were such little shits. Mom’s admonishment about “sticks and stones” never seemed to really cover the situation.

    I’m glad that you have managed to channel this to something positive. I love the new layout/design.

    And, now I’ll have more time to read your erotica since I will not be so distracted by your lovely bosom!

    ~ No, that old adage never made me feel any better. Thanks *hugs*

  • Vox Senex

    My former coworker said regarding a beautiful woman, “ya know, sooner or later, you’re gonna have to talk to ’em.” Which was his way of saying, we may look, but we stick around for the conversation.

    ~ Heh, yes, beautiful women aren’t just pretty canvases. Although I will admit to ogling some of the HNT gals a little more than necessary, myself.

  • PsycheDiver

    I love the new design. I wish I could make my blog look this good.

    I completely understand that you’re having a hard time finding a muse and want to stop the HNT. Take all the time you need.

  • Mike

    Love your new layout (Umm tits) and wish i could get my blog looking like this too (Umm tits) And as your for carpark flash, very nice indded. Nice tits and nipples ;)

    HHNT

    ps, sorry was a little distracked while writing my reply ;)

  • Kannon

    Great new look and much easier to read. This is your space and you do want you want to do. I enjoy the words as much as the photos.